chemistry, what is it good for?

i dont like yogurts.

i really dont...

their packaging are good...

but i dont like em...

i think people who does not like yogurt and they see that yogurt packaging, they might say...hmm..u know, it looks like an icecream, maybe i shud give it a try...but no iam sorry, u r dead wrong..once that yogurts goes into your mouth...u feel like throwing that yogurt right into the creator's face!

but anyway thats not the point.

u knw, they were doing this very interesting survey the other day over at the radio, they asked the listeners whether u think that chemistry can be made voluntary or is it given that u can have chemistry withsome people and u cant with others..

and for once, i have to admit, these weird ass radio mcs..this time finally they asked something sensible, cuz otherwise they would just yap yap and sing crazy stuff and laugh like as if their partner has said the funniest thing they have ever heard in their whole life...sometimes i wonder...when they laugh..what exactly are they laughing at?

i mean if theyd ont find it funny, is it possible that there is a laughter support team over there that will tickle them and say "common laugh u nutcase u r supposed to laugh!!"

and what ever they say..is it rehearsed? cuz if it is...they better rehearse again before they go on air.

so anyways, my opinion..id rather give me opinion here...they said to tell them via sms, but really how long can u write an sms? and iam not such a big fan of smses...i have very lazy thumbs, which is y they are probably the fattest fingers of all.

i think chemistry can be made yes...it depends on the people...with some people chemistry just happens..and with some people...well....u meet them and u go...h...hhii...hhiiii... m..mmm..my name ..i..iii...iss suraj...and then u break up into a pool of sweat and the other person is wondering what the fuck is wrong with u...i dont know if thats chemistry..i think it is...but its of the wrong and defected type..i wouldnt go for that.

but u get what iam saying...some people no matter how friendly they are..or how friendly people think they are and u have heard so much about them..they are popular people like them...but somehow u dont like them...then yea u gotta work on it...cuz people like em...y dont u ??

but thats a theory i dont really go for..i think that we shud just go with the flow...if chemistry happens, it happens, if it doesnt, it doesnt..simple as that.

working and putting an effort on making chemistry is just another way of saying trying to impress people..in a more desperate way...when we say chemistry..we dont really mean our bosses or our parents do we? we mean the opposite sex, which we would like to be "close" with. but u dont want the wrong chemicals to be mixed up or that might just cause an explosion.

busway adventure

today evening, when i was being cramped into pulp by the many people in busway, i was talking with my friend, both of us was gasping while talking, it sounded like as if its going to be the last conversation we are ever going to have.

and he asked me "have u ever posted a blog on busway" and well, u know my answer.

and here is another one.

tell u frankly, i dont know what else to write, especially about busway, i mean, how many things can u write about a fuckin bus man cmon. how many insults? how many praises? comments on the citizens armpits?

today was a very tiring day, i had to change buses three times, this iam doing eversince i found out that there is a busway stop closer to my house and i could save a few bucks by changing the busway route three times by paying just once....boy do i sound cheap.

but tiring it is, especially when u have to get cramped like three times for 1.5 hours continuously is not a joke, the moment i got cramped i asked myself "how the hell did i fit in such small space? could i be plastic man?" (which makes me wonder, y is it called plastic man? y not rubber man? considering that rubber is actually more flexible than plastic?)

so the final destination anyways was cempaka mas, and from cempaka mas i actually took a walk to my home, its like a half an hour walk, very far, very tiring, but for the sake of saving a few bucks, y not?

i dontknow what my point is, its basically rather pointless to be honest with u.

ah well, thats it.

the Jack Bauer way

to any of u guys who does not know jack bauer, lemme introduce jack bauer, no he is not a self improvement fellow or some spiritual leader, jack bauer is a fictional character, he is the hero of the 24 series.

i love 24, i dont need to tell u that anymore, anyone who knows me, know that i hv totally avoided and social outings and gatherings cuz i wanna watch 24 and i dont wanna be bugged by anyone, even my mom. u can be sure, that if i call any of my friends now, the first thing they are gonna say "suraj!! where the hell have u been man!!"

now, i have learnt alot of things from this jack bauer guy.

jack bauer is tough, not physically, he is not some muscular action hero like rambo or terminator, no he is just a father who is in his like late thirtiest probably, average guy who happens to be a federal agent working for CTU.

but this guy has got brains, he is a risk taker and he is very brave.

one thing i have learnt from 24 is how we survive in a tough working environment, like the ctu headquarters, how to survive in such a tough office, i can really relate to jack's daughter, kim, who starts working for the ctu at the 3rd season, i was just like her when i started working, and was a very confused person, and i did get some resentment from other collegues but i survived.

and from jack, i have learnt some few good pointers about negotiating (jack bauer really knows how to talk sternly and get to the point, i love the way he talks), i have learnt that if u wanna be something, sometimes (infact alot of times) u shud NOT play by the book, i mean half of the things he does is totally against the rule, he is the one who breaks most of the rules basically, but any of u who watches 24 would agree with me if i say that he is the guy who brings the most results.

i have learnt how to live in a tough environment from 24...

if i think about it, its really weird how help coems from the most unexpected sources, i mean, all this self improvement and spiritual books, i have to be honest, they gave some really good pointers, i enjoy reading them, but hardly any good even came of them, 24 was intended for mere entertainment, but man, it definitely turned out to be more than that huh ?

Should i REALLY give a damn?

should i really give a damn if u dont like me? shud i really give a damn if the party i missed yesterday was pretty happening? should i really give a damn if no one is happy about the way i do things and about how i think?

am i born to make u like me? will my world end if u (any of u) dont like me? am i considered the loneliest person in this planet if no one is happy with how i do stuff and everything, if i cant (or maybe dont want to) blend to any of u crazy folks out there?

answer to all of this is NO.

after spending for alot of days being alone, well, i wouldnt say alone, its not like iam living in a wooden log house in the middle of the forest, i have discovered that i like it, i love it. i like the way iam living.

all these days, i have been going after people, after serious lunatics and being as crazy as them to impress them, what the hell for !! y the hell do i want to impress a god damn lunatic!! y? just to blend it? get outta here.

so what if i dont like going out ? so whatttt???? that only thing thats gonna happen to me if i go out is i feel like going back to my home almost straight away, so y ? y do i have to go out when i can make myself happy at home? what is there outside? y would i say that i missed something, if i dont even care what i missed.

do u see fishes going out of the water to dry land just for "experience" or maybe "experience of a life time" ? so what if i dont live on the edge? so what if iam not crazy? iam normal, u r crazy, maybe u shud get a check up, calling me all crazy!

u r crazy because u think that i dont live like u? y the hell shold i live like u? y the hell should ANYONE live like u? what do i get by living like u? i just end up loosing myself. i think everyone has a right to live the way they like, y all the imitating, forget it, if i wanted to imitate anyone, i might as well post some fancy poems to fill up my blog, but alas, iam me, and i like being me. so dont lecture me on being like u.

they say if i wanna be popular i shud make a plan, get people together..like say make a party invite them to my house, my crib or whatever fancy word they use to describe a home...y the hell do i want people to treat my house like its their fuckin hotel room ? y ?

i dont like them. i like being alone, i like having space, iam an observer, i observe things, i like judging people, maybe make fun of them, i like to think who it is they are with, what could they be talking about, i see a couple and think ah well maybe they are brothers and sisters, and then they get intimate, i go ah well they are bros and sis with some serious problems. its what i do best, and they are just distracting me with all their weird ass blabbering, if they could just shut up for one minute take a deep breath, and consider making me comfortable, but alas.

iam not born to make u happy, iam born to make things right, whether u r happy or not, i really shudnt and wudnt give a damn, u being happy aint my priority, u wanna be happy, well...i cant give u an advice, go sort it out yourself, this time i wanna make myself happy, and the only way i can make myself happy, is if u get out of my face. ive been very considerable and u just took advantage, well, show times over my friend, no more mr nice guy.

now about the things that i wrote above, its really not addressed to anyone in particular, the point of this whole post here, is to give u a clear view of the things that i live by and some of the many things that i have come to realize, this blog is after all about me and my thoughts, some of u might like it, some of u might not, but IT DOESNT MATTER, as long as i like it, i will live with it.

"No one's on earth alone, yet everyone's on their own"- from the single Pure by Blue Six

things to invest for slackers

my official past times, reading books, watch dvds...as u have noticed none of this contains any physical activities whatsoever..and if it wasnt for the routine work out that i do, i would be officially a big obese fat ass couch potato, who is being pulled by my mom and dad to get out of the couch and stop smelling like a stinkin potato.

and with the smarter authors and movie producers these days, with their smart wits and new technology, iam just finding it harder to stop, its addictive.

first there were the brilliant literary works of god knows how many authors all of them better than one another, and then after that, after my friends literally suggested me to the point of begging me to watch 24, i ended up gettting addicted to it and there was a day where i was sitting infront of the screen from 5 in the evening until 10 in the night watching 24 !!!! ofcourse after that i had to face my mom's steaming hot lectures, which was, thank god, not as long as 5 hours.

so now i just came back from kelapa gading and bought some dvds...amongst which are, 24 season 3, seinfeld's great works and since all of them totalled to 10 dvds i got to pick 1 one more free dvd so i chose Robin Williams's new movie titled simply 'RV'

now if u are a slacker and u really looking for entertainment, these are the things thats gonna get u well...get u to a whole new level of slackerdome, a dvd of 24 and seinfeld....oh my god...

seinfeld was nuts is nuts and will still be considered a nut, and to watch those people in the convinience of a dvd was just something i couldnt refuse. so thats one thing worth investing, a whole bunch of seinfel dvds.

and as for 24 well..i dont have to say anything, just read my blog about 24, cant miss it, its got the 24 poster on it!

so while u guys are gonna go to happening places like mu bar and god knows whereever they are gonna air those bloody world cups, iam NOT gonna strain my eyes over watching some 11 nut cases chassing a ball being watched by half of the population of the world most of which i dont even know of, in the wee hours of the morning...watching people screaming their lungs of and getting a heart attack at 2 oclock in the morning is not exactly my sorta thing, i dont wanna go "BRAZILLLLLLL" and go on the table and dance samba for a couple of baldy at 2 fucking oclockin the morning!!!! i cant, i wanna go to work, i wanna make a fucking life, and id rather be cheerful about it, hence the seinfeld!

watch seinfeld and go early to bed and early to rise makes a man funny and wise.

just be in a grim grim bali

god knows how many posts i have written about my beloved island of Bali (its not mine, but my favourite island to chill)...its almost everytime that when i come back from bali i ended up posting praises about Bali in my blog, the friendly people the cool atmosphere, the sunset the beach, everything...but not this time...no surey.

this time bali was grim, probably because of the sharp delcine in number of tourist due to the political rift and strained relationship between indonesia and oz, more than half of the tourist that visits bali is from oz, an bali's main income is from the tourist business, without the tourist they are dead, we are dead, I, am dead, i went there for business, and due the decline in tourist, my business was dead, it was really bad.

thought i would feel better by chilling in kuta, legian, but that didnt help either, cuz i looked all around me i just couldnt help asking myself, where are the peopleee, there were merry tourist around me, but not as much and as happening as it was before. and all the tourist that was there, talked about how quiet bali has become.

so there i was rather alone, and the best thing that u can do when u are alone is that, u can clear your head, think things through and everything, so thats what i did, i just took a walk, chilled in starbucks, reading my Salman Rushdie book and listened to my ipod, and thats it...

ok thats not it, when i was listening to my ipod, i listen to this track by tiesto called just be, i normally listen to this for the music, but just for this time, i thought, "u know what? Kirsty Hawkshaw really sang well in this single, so lets just hear what she has to say for once" so i heard the song, and my god, i found out that this lady was like singing to me man! i mean this is one song i could identify, if any of you think that vocal trance has got really stupid and crappy lyrics, well, u can exclude this one, and since i love this track so much, iam gonna paste the lyrics here :

You can travel the world

But you can't run away

From the person you are in your heart

You can be who you want to be

Make us believe in you

Keep all your light in the dark

If you're searchin for truth

You must look in the mirror

And make sense of what you can see

Just be

Just be

They say learning to love yourself

Is the first step

That you take when you want to be real

Flying on planes to exotic locations

Won't teach you

How you really feel

Face up to the fact

That you are who you are

Nothing can change that belief

Just be

Just be

'cause now I know

It's not so far

To where I go

The hardest part

Is inside me

I needTo just be

Just be

Just be

Just be

Just be

I was lost

And I'm still lost

But I feel so much better

'cause now I know

It's not so far

To where I go

The hardest part

Is inside me

I need

To just be

Just be

..and that is just what iam doing all these days....just be.

PS :Salman Rushdie Kicks ass, read his books, its gonna knock u off your chappals!

oh boy

well, i dont know what to write about seriously, iam at lost

i mean i could write volumes about patience and persistence and what not to the extent that my blog might just end up looking like some self improvement book, i could write about endless wisdoms u need to follow in order to be a mad man like moi, but that wont do, and besides u aint willing to go through the tough and ardous journey of being me, u wont even live a day being me.

so i thought about writing about whats going right now at this moment as iam sitting here on my comp (i dont mean literraly sitting on my cpu man, but u get my point lah). right now a few mosquitoes are flying infront of me, annoying the hell out of me, i only wished that mosquitoes would sleep at this time (the time by the way is 12:45am) i believe they have come here because of the orange and banana peels which i left on the table like hours ago, i will throw them to the dustbin as soon as iam done (and probably as soon as the mosquitoes are done with sucking my blood as well), i installed the itunes to my formateed computer.

a lil bit on whts was going on with my comp, i think i have said somewhere in my previous post that my cmop was spoilt and then i got it fixed (i made very sure i told the comp guy to back up all necessary files such as photos, music, porn (hehe kidding) and then format it and reinstall it to the system, which he did so very skillfully) but then after that i had to install so many other things like msn, limewire, ares and then the most confusing-itunes.

i mean it was pretty easy installing it from the cd rom given, but then somehow i had some problems uploading my songs to my ipod, at one point my ipod got hung i couldnt do anything (and neither could the ipod-duh!) almost cried until the battery went off and i recharged it and then i went normal, when i saw it was normal i gave the biggest sigh, i almost mistook it as my last breath, and reacted by gasping back what i sighed.....whatever.

so anyways, being the clever fellow that iam...ahem... i finally figured everything out and now my computer is back to full operation, and a lil more.

so thanx to that guy who managed to fix my computer and give me a new hard disk and a new modem within 3 hours!! u amazing, and thanx to the mosquitoes for keeping me company in this quiet saturday night, i promise u i will treat u guys with more banana and orange peels next time!

till then, adios amigos and good night.