u know after writing blogs for quite a long time, one really tend to loose topic on what to write anymore.

seriously, what the hell should i be writing about here. ofcourse not many blogs in blogspot yet, most of my blogs were written in my friendster blog.

anyway, iam currently reading this amazing book titled The God Delusion by Richard Dawkins, and i have to say, Dawkins did an excellent excellent book on this one to say the least.

Richard does an exceptional job and convincing people that God Does Not Exist. no exception, no buts. he trully does not exist.

and after reading almost half of the book, i have to admit the arguements which he brings forth are very very legitimate.

one of the most interesting arguement is that, if everything on this planet was designed by a designer (in this case, god) then who designed the designer?

i say this is interesting because hardly anyone ever thought about this fact, and indeed its really not such an obvious fact.

because if everything on this planet is created by a designer then it totally diminishes the theory of Evolution. and that everything on this planet was created without having it to evolve. which is plain ridiculous.

which i think is the main reason why Religion and Science is not going along very well..religion is not exactly into the evolution process. because it totally diminishes the concept of the Designer god. evolutuon is based on the theory of Natural Selection which was founded by Darwin.

anyways, enuff of that. i really cant elaborate further on this one, but thats as best as i could put it.

the old friend

well, i finally got to meet my old friend who i havent met for over 10 years, and least to say, we got the shock of our lives...cuz we looked so freakin different to each other, he is freaking taller than i am now, that dude used to be the shortest in our class.

but it was great, we talked about the good old days when we were classmates, and all the shit that we used to do and other people used to do.

but most of all, looking at that dude of mine, i got reminded when things were more simple, more straightforward. when things just werent so complicated yet, when reality was still good to us and never bit us in any way yet.

and after all the crap that has been happening to me and my life, looking and talking to that dude, during that particular moment, i tell you, life was back to what it once was, and it just felt so freakin good, to get that feeling once again.

it gave me a feel to what life should be.

given the fact that we seperated into our own ways, he went to singapore and i, hell, we just couldnt help but notice the changes we have had in the past, but nonetheless we are still the same, i guess it only goes to say that, people dont really change their nature, they just evolve into MORE than what they are. we cant change, puppies will always grow into dogs, kitten into cats, u cant expect kittens to grow into dogs, i guess its the same for us human, we just grow more of what we actually are.

in the end, amidst all the chaos, its nice to know that there is still that one particular friend who can assure you a good time and will always be by your side no matter what.

return of an old friend.

this month has all been about shitty local aeroplane flights filled with crappy aeroplane foods served by ugly looking airhostess....flown through the ugliest clouds.

sorry dont mean to sound like a pessimist.

i just came back yesterday from Bali after 4 days of tireless work (yes in Bali, can you believe it?), iam now set (or should be set) to go to Surabaya for another week of working my ass off. but hey this is experience, so i will just accept it, cuz i know this will serve me well in the future (it better!)

all in all life is great, but...no...no buts for now. life is great, thats it, full stop. why do i need to add but to every good sentence that i say man. it doesnt have to be that way no?

i just talked over the phone with my very very old friend, who used to be my bestest friend when i was around 12 years old, he just came back from singapore for a few days to attend his cousin's wedding.

and we talked about...errr...well i dont know, just random stuff, ok we kinda found very hard to talk, cuz maybe we have been seperated for so long.

and i just couldnt help but wonder, is this dude still gonna be the same dude i used to seriously seriously hook up with, we used to be so close when we were kids that we sometimes talked the same things at the same time together at once. we CLICKED!

and i have never clicked with a person like that ever in my life.

but that was back in the days when were innocent and things were alot more simple, i wonder how is it gonna be now, iam looking forward to meeting him tomorrow at his cousin's wedding to which he invited me.

will report soon enuff.

its been a long time

well it has been quite a while since i have updated this blog of mine...a very very long time i might add. and alot of things has happened since then, i went to vipassana, gained invaluable insights that eventually turned me into a proud and spiritual and more loving vegetarian..a fact alot of people still find hard to believe, which is understandable.

ofcourse there are alot of other things, but this one thing is probably the biggest among all of them.

i just came back from Bali as iam writing this down. flight was late as usual, a hot Turkish chick was kind enuff to give me company during our grueling wait. and no i wont give details about her over here.

i seriuosly dont know what to write,

i guess most of the time are spent on reflecting on life nowadays, thinking what is it that makes people fearful.

and i have ended up having this vague idea that people might have fear in them due to past experiences, and due to what other people have told them, which in turn has made our mind very conditional and limited.

its in our human nature and human habit (a bad habit i might add) to think that whatever we think is "right" is right...it cant be wrong, somehow we have this innate believe that we are "right" when we are right and that our perceptions are never wrong, it doesnt matter if we consider ourselves to be very openminded, sometimes we fall into this trap time and again, because our mind has been wired that way since we are born and it is very hard to "unwire" it so to speak.

think of the things we could do if we really didnt put our perceptions on such a high priority. there are times when we should act without thinking. approach a person which we are shy of approaching without thinking of the ultimate outcome which we are scared of.

i think thats the only way to break old habit patterns....to go against whatever we are thinking off...to make ourselves believe that what we are thinking is wrong and to keep doing it again and again, until it becomes a habit and a new thought pattern, it might seem grueling at first, but that just life, no new shoe can be as comfortable as an old shoe. but give the new shoe a time to adjust to your legs (or is it the other way around) and u will be comfortable, no?